Profound apologies for my long absence from this forum. The wizard of Eutopia has been through a few tough trainings lately! I’m no longer living at Eutopia or the Ark, Kaiwaka, but in my sister’s barn in whangarei, one hours drive north, where my mother is now in a rest home. I’ve moved up to help family be with her there most of the day. My father had looked after her for several years until it got too much, and she needed 24 hour care. So we found a good home and she settled in nicely. Then my father cleared out the house and had a stroke and died after several days in a near-coma, during which all the family said their good byes, and he squeezed some of our hands and sometimes opened his eyes to look at us. Then with his four children around the bed he peacefully stopped breathing. Organised in life, in his death he was the same.
I had been struggling to keep going in Kaiwaka, and there seemed to be nothing happening; no visitors, no breakthroughs or good news, just the struggle and the frequent ‘hangovers’ from suspected chemical sensitivity. Then I was meditating, nearly fell asleep and heard a voice (very unusual for me!) like Gandalf’s saying ‘Get out of Orthanc‘. I thought, ‘But I’m not a Saruman!’ However, I looked into the symbolism and it made more sense. Saruman’s home was a tower of stone – the name Peter means pier or rock. His logo was a white hand; my constant temptation has been to live by the sentence my parents said to me: ‘You’re good with your hands, why not make a living making things?’ Finally, it has struck me since going north that the name ‘wizard of Eutopia’ refers to the ability to visualise and catalyse the magic of a place, to transfigure it into a Good Place, or Eutopia. Not just one place, my own creation in Kaiwaka. I had to leave to really get this. Aways, the wizard must be willing to let go of the forms of his doing in order to hold fast to, and learn better, the essence of his being.
Now I have a little studio in the Quarry Arts Centre, whangarei, and it is a Good Place, not built by me, but it might as well have been. And what I’m starting there is not only art, but philosophy, and the next big breakthrough has just come: I’ve realised that the main thing I got wrong in Eutopia, Kaiwaka, was that I neglected my own process theory, which says that the Blue zone, or Love and openness, connection, comes first, THEN Beauty. I had been trying to build Beauty without connecting with people first. So I remained virtually alone in the endeavour. For 13 years.
Now I have vowed to BEGIN here with Love. In fact, to make that the focus. So I started a website www.loveqor.com,
and am working on the ‘logic of Love’ and its application to all of life. And today I got clear that it might as well be called a religion of love – see the LoveQor post: http://loveqor.com/2013/12/03/ok-ive-had-it-im-starting-a-new-religion-working-title-loveqor/
I hope you like it! The focus on love is strange perhaps, for a wizard, but we must follow our light where it leads. The School of Life we are all in, including the teachers! I warnly invite you to come over to loveqor.com and see what is unfolding…